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Oct. 14th, 2002 10:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tefinden0Why can't I make friends.....?
I try.. I mean.. I think i do.. I'm very ... friendly, and I'll talk to you.. and.. I've been told that I'm funny but people still aren't my friends.. People who have me in ther class all year don't even know my name..
.. I was told that be different and you're personality will attract people to you and you will have true friends. That's a heaping load of steaming shit.
I'm as different as they come, I do things that others don't, I act myself, i do what pleases me not others. Who needs to brush their hair? Not me. Matching outfits... PShhhhhhhhhh don't make me laugh. I could spend that 70$ on ferret supplies. or another eye patch. I wore a cardboard pizza box around town on my head for a day just because I felt like it.
... And I still can't attract friends. Sure I'm happy... yeah.. once and awhile, .. but.. if I'm such a 'funny person' if i'm so 'good to you' then... why aren't we friends? Why can't we hang out? ... why.. am I still always stuck being alone? When everyone is talking to their friends, how come I'm in the corner watching..?
.. not that I'm complaining... Just looking back at my 17 yrs and regretting a few things. wondering about a few things.. wishing for a few more.
I try.. I mean.. I think i do.. I'm very ... friendly, and I'll talk to you.. and.. I've been told that I'm funny but people still aren't my friends.. People who have me in ther class all year don't even know my name..
.. I was told that be different and you're personality will attract people to you and you will have true friends. That's a heaping load of steaming shit.
I'm as different as they come, I do things that others don't, I act myself, i do what pleases me not others. Who needs to brush their hair? Not me. Matching outfits... PShhhhhhhhhh don't make me laugh. I could spend that 70$ on ferret supplies. or another eye patch. I wore a cardboard pizza box around town on my head for a day just because I felt like it.
... And I still can't attract friends. Sure I'm happy... yeah.. once and awhile, .. but.. if I'm such a 'funny person' if i'm so 'good to you' then... why aren't we friends? Why can't we hang out? ... why.. am I still always stuck being alone? When everyone is talking to their friends, how come I'm in the corner watching..?
.. not that I'm complaining... Just looking back at my 17 yrs and regretting a few things. wondering about a few things.. wishing for a few more.
