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Feb. 1st, 2002 10:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tefinden0It's more than kinda sad... not sure how to explain it though.. let me think a minute...
Even if the person I have a crush on decided 'hey love you too!' I'd be just as messed up. All because of distance.. I still won't be able to hug them, wouldn't get the physical contact and real personalities you need to form a .. real relationship I guess..
I'd be estatic if they did.. but I'd know .. I'd just mess them up too. It's not fair.. to the other or me for that matter.. I'll still be stupid, still be crazy, still be lost, busted up and stuck in lonliness. Only difference is I'd be waiting for someone to come in.. who might not. I'd be waiting to virtually hug that person.. and it might happen, but all that's happening.. no matter how much I put into it, no matter how much I believe in RPing.. no matter how much I really really mean it... I'll just be typing in the words.. and not showing them.
So I'm stuck in the same position I was in before.. only now that person knows they have to be wary around me.. have to watch what they say.. Ooo what out for Andrea... be careful around her..don't hurt her feelings.
Andrea's feelings don't matter. If it's important to you, no matter what it is let me know. had sex? Cool. Let me know. If you tell me enough, perhaps I'll understand. don't worry about be wary.. that'll just put more distance between us and I don't want that.. I just want the love... Even if it's just friendship.
Hell. GREAT if it's just friendship at least that's something. That's something that I'm lacking alot of and I might as well get some. (Friendship that is)
So give it to me (Still Friendship you sickos! ^jk^))
Even if the person I have a crush on decided 'hey love you too!' I'd be just as messed up. All because of distance.. I still won't be able to hug them, wouldn't get the physical contact and real personalities you need to form a .. real relationship I guess..
I'd be estatic if they did.. but I'd know .. I'd just mess them up too. It's not fair.. to the other or me for that matter.. I'll still be stupid, still be crazy, still be lost, busted up and stuck in lonliness. Only difference is I'd be waiting for someone to come in.. who might not. I'd be waiting to virtually hug that person.. and it might happen, but all that's happening.. no matter how much I put into it, no matter how much I believe in RPing.. no matter how much I really really mean it... I'll just be typing in the words.. and not showing them.
So I'm stuck in the same position I was in before.. only now that person knows they have to be wary around me.. have to watch what they say.. Ooo what out for Andrea... be careful around her..don't hurt her feelings.
Andrea's feelings don't matter. If it's important to you, no matter what it is let me know. had sex? Cool. Let me know. If you tell me enough, perhaps I'll understand. don't worry about be wary.. that'll just put more distance between us and I don't want that.. I just want the love... Even if it's just friendship.
Hell. GREAT if it's just friendship at least that's something. That's something that I'm lacking alot of and I might as well get some. (Friendship that is)
So give it to me (Still Friendship you sickos! ^jk^))
