tefinden0 | Grinds teeth

Squeezes eyes shut, nails bitting into palms, head down teeth grinding against each other.

'Why am I treated like a convict?? I didn't do anything wrong. Why are you keeping tabs on me? Why are you having people watch me?? '

I brought Roxy and Jon over Sunday night, while mom and Bryan were out of town because they bought me dinner. We got take out from Chili's because it was too busy to wait. We called his parents and found out (after we got the food) that they were having a party so we had to wait an hour before we went over. So we decided to go to my house and eat then go. we did. We washed our dishes and cleaned up our mess, they put the dishes in the dish washer while I fed the animals and did all the other S I was suppose to do. Then we went to his house.

I woke up this morning around 9 and went downstairs, fed the animals and Roxy and Jon came over to take me to Jon's so they could cook breakfast. I look outside and 2 of Brandon's Friends trucks are parked outside and his door is shut.

Today they were suppose to be home, I waited till 8:30 then had them take me home, we got home to radio blaring, lights on, Brandon's friend in the living room. So we went up stairs so Roxy could put her Puzzle she's been keeping here in a box to take home and while they were here I got online to check my mail and go on LJ. I showed them how it worked real fast when mom got home. So they hung out for awhile then I walked them out. I get back inside and I'm asked 'who was here? When were they here? Why?' She knew. cause she kept saying "And when else? and who else??" FUCK YOU!1!! Who are you having watch me moM?? WHO?? Why am I being treated like the fucking criminal. FUCK ME for going to School! FUCK ME for having friends who give half a rats ass about me. FUCK ME for having an almost life. I worked all week last week. I worked 11 hours yesterday. And because I had the day off today we went out. FUCK ME for having a life ok??

If I'm bad enough to be watched over like a hawk and reported on, then maybe I should stand up to it and show them that I SHOULD be watched.